Hello, people who are out there (if there is any) i would like to take a moment and talk to you about something…
I don’t know what to do…my family,my whole family (except for my mom) are Alcoholics. I cant live a single day without the fear of getting more mentally damaged than i already am. I am a germ-a-phob or whatever you call it and the other day my grandma was drunk, with my dad and my self-esteem went even lower that day..
I am afraid of touching silverware that some one already touched and my grandma thought it might be funny to “make fun” of me for it. All i could hear is her devilish laughter saying “haha thats funny and stupid”. After that she began to laugh and call me “fat, stupid, lazy and worthless” and she said “all she fucking does is is sit on her computer all day, stupid bitch”. All i can say is that i guess it was my day to get picked on…
I started to cry..and she said “CRY FATTY CRY”!!! I didnt know what to do then and i dont know what to do now…and i am afraid i might harm myself…as embarrassing as it is..i dont know how to get help…everyone is drunk now and they always will be…If there is anyone out there who can help me…Please can you help me how to get though not harming myself anymore…please no hate….